Faith vs. Fury: Using AI Music to Process Christian Anger

As Christians, we often hear about the transformative power of faith—how it can heal wounds, bring peace, and guide us through life’s trials. But what happens when faith meets the raw, unfiltered reality of emotions like rage? For many men, myself included, the intense anger rooted in untreated PTSD from childhood trauma and abuse doesn’t disappear with prayer alone. Instead, it becomes an ongoing battle—a struggle between the light of faith and the darkness of our inner turmoil.

My latest track, "Dem Call It, 'Murda!'", is my way of addressing that battle. It’s a song born out of my personal experience of trying to reconcile my faith with deep-seated anger. I’m not a therapist, but this is how I’ve used Suno AI as a kind of music therapy—a way to process my emotions, experiment with tone and lyrics, and ultimately create something that feels "just right."

The Reality of Rage and PTSD in a Christian Life

Being a Christian doesn’t grant immunity from PTSD or the intense emotions it brings. Childhood trauma leaves scars, both visible and invisible, and rage is often the symptom of deeper pain.

For me, dealing with this anger as a Christian has many shades. Some moments are defined by defiance, others by reflection, and others still by redemption as I feel the words of God trying to reach my heart. This complexity is reflected in the three versions of "Dem Call It, 'Murda!'" that I created using Suno AI.

Using Suno AI as Music Therapy

Suno AI has been a valuable tool for exploring and channeling these emotions. While I wouldn’t call it a replacement for therapy, it’s given me a creative outlet to express feelings that can otherwise feel overwhelming. Here’s how I approach using AI as a form of music therapy:

• Experimenting with Tone: I can tweak the tone of my songs to match different emotional states. For example, the main version of "Dem Call It, 'Murda!'" conveys raw defiance, while the second version is more reflective, and the third leans heavily into redemption. Each one captures a unique shade of my experience.
• Customizing Lyrics: Suno AI lets me play with the lyrics until they align with what I’m feeling. Some verses speak directly to the rage inside, while others focus on God’s words and their ability to pierce through the darkness.
• Adjusting the Arrangement: From fierce 808s to epic sound effects, I use AI to refine the arrangement until it feels like the perfect soundtrack to my emotions. The ability to manipulate every element of the song helps me process feelings in a tangible way.
• Finding Resolution: Music, for me, isn’t just about expressing emotions—it’s about finding some form of resolution. By creating multiple versions of this song, I’ve allowed myself to explore the full spectrum of emotions tied to my rage and my faith.

Crafting "Dem Call It, 'Murda!'"

This track is built on themes of inner rage, power, and redemption. The lyrics reflect the tension between anger and faith, starting with raw defiance: "Mi spirit torn, caught 'tween light and dark, Mi heart heavy, leavin’ scars and mark."

As the song progresses, it moves toward reflection and finally redemption, with lines like: "Jah seh, 'Son, let di Righteous be told.' Mi fi choose mi path, fire from di pain, Fi rise above or be bound in chain."

Why Music Matters in Emotional Healing

Creating music, especially with AI tools like Suno, gives me the freedom to process emotions in ways that are both therapeutic and meaningful. Music has always been a powerful outlet for emotions, and now, technology allows us to shape it in deeply personal ways.

For anyone struggling with similar emotions, I encourage you to find a creative outlet that resonates with you. Whether it’s music, writing, or another form of art, expressing yourself can be a way to process even the deepest emotions.

Listen to the Song

Ready to experience the raw power and emotional depth of "Dem Call It, 'Murda!'"? Follow me on Suno AI to explore my creations. I always follow back!

You can also download all three versions of the track on my official site: Download "Dem Call It, 'Murda!'" Here.

Final Thoughts

Anger and faith may seem like opposing forces, but they’re part of the same human journey. Using tools like Suno AI, I’ve been able to explore the complexity of those emotions, creating music that acknowledges the darkness while striving toward the light.

If you’re battling your own inner struggles, remember this: faith doesn’t mean perfection—it means perseverance. Let music, or whatever creative outlet speaks to you, be your tool for healing and redemption.